There is a pain that is so deep it seems unreachable yet tangible, present yet so surreal, forgiven and yet still so grievous.
That pain will always be with me, at least this side of Heaven. Yes, I’m forgiven by God and I’ve forgiven myself but the pain, it never leaves, and I’m not sure I would want it to.
You see, it’s because of that pain that I’m able to love deeply, and to reach out to others who have endured their own painful past.
But because I’m forgiven my past is no longer a reminder of shame and guilt but a platform to lead others out of darkness and captivity into truth and freedom through Christ.
It’s because of Jesus and the pain He endured that I understand the cost of my salvation, a debt I could never repay. Those who have been forgiven much, love much.
My sin was great, Your love was greater. What a beautiful name it is. Jesus.
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Tonight I had the house all to myself which is pretty rare so I chose to relax and watch October Baby, a movie very dear to my heart. I’ve seen it many times before but I feel as if I take something more from it each time I watch. It was this quote that stood out to me.
“Only in forgiveness can you be free…”
There’s a part of me that has struggled believing that I had a right to speak out against abortion because I’m a post-abortive woman.
I’ve used my voice to talk about my own pain but to be honest, I’ve worried that if I spoke out publicly against abortion that others would see me as a hypocrite.
But who better to speak out against the atrocities of war than the soldiers who have been on the frontlines – those wounded in body, mind and soul.
I’ve been on the frontlines and I’m telling you, it’s a place you do not want to be. It’s pure evil. And the physical pain cannot compare to the emotional soul-searing pain that endures. Please do not make the same choice that I and so very many others have made.
If you’ve already made that choice please do not feel condemned but know that what Jesus did on the cross was enough to cover your sin and mine.
Your debt was paid, you’ve already been forgiven. All you have to do is receive it and you will be free.
John 8:36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.